You know how it is when you go to your email (or facebook) and there's a "If you don't do this you'll get 25 years bad luck!" chain letter?? You really don't want to bother, you know you're not superstitious, and you don't have the time anyway. Now what. Does it mean you don't love the person who sent it to you? Does it mean you'll get 25 years of bad luck? Is it a for real story, or an internet scam? If you respond yes, will you really bug the friends you send it to because you've just cluttered up their mailbox and given them the gift of guilt? It doesn't matter how you answer the questions, tatters of guilt cling to you however you may respond.
My daughter-in-law, whom I love dearly for lots of reasons besides the gift of love she's given us in Abram and time with him, sent me such a message. All I had to do was write 25 things about me and send them to 25 of my nearest and dearest. 25??!!??
I am not the introspective type. Like many folks, I am afraid to look deep into my heart and see the filth that is really there. And yet, the message came on Sunday, after praying the confessional prayer in church and asking Christ to forgive me - - AGAIN! What matter if I confess aloud some of the things that are vain, sinful, and not quite as lovely within me? And if someone would take the egocentric step of starting a blog, why wouldn't they be willing to bare at least some of their soul? And besides some of the 25 things aren't BAD things.
And then there is the gift of introspection given to me by my daughter-in-law. She had shown me some deep things about herself. It would only be fair to return the favor - although I confess I could have just sent the 25 things back to only her.
And so here is my Ponzi scheme type confession that went out to 25 of you, my nearest and dearest. I apologize and absolve each and everyone from any and all guilt it may have brought to you. And I ask your forgiveness and continued love where you find true things which are less than beautiful.
25 things about me 8:52pmRULES: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.
(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs (+) on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)
1. I wrote this out, was up to #26 and on a roll, and lost EVERYTHING except the tag list.
2. I love technology, I love technology, I love technology.....tired of that?? It's my mantra when my 'stuff' goes to that great computer in the sky.
3. I love Facebook - I have had so much fun reconnecting with my students, family, friends, house guests, etc, etc, etc. I'm addicted!!!
4. I love living at Lake Monticello!! Greene was great, but I've never looked back.
5. SURPRISE! I love to teach - not just kids, not just science, but EVERYTHING!
6. I love to perform - need an actress? singer? playwright? song and dance man? comedienne? I'm there.
7. I love to write! If I had self discipline, I'd finish one of the plays or books I've started.
8. If I had self-discipline, the thin person inside of me would finally make it out again.
9. I have planned my funeral, donated my body to medical science (but still haven't figured out how to get that final science lesson inside or on me for the medical students that dissect me), and written my epitaph: "Here lies Ida Baumgarth Swenson. Her hands are folded and eyes are shut, It hasn't been often she's stayed put. But if she now could send you greeting, She'd say, "I'm only asleep at another meeting."
10. I love Abram. He just amazes me. That mind just whirs, but that smile- - it just sends me through the ceiling.
11. I write poetry occasionally. Mom gave me a blank book and sometimes I stick my verse into it, in a file folder in my drawer.
12. Nature is poetry to me - sunsets, mountains and hills in mist, the deep dark woods, trilling streams darting with life, mmmmmmm.
13. I miss my grandma B. more than I miss my folks.
14. I wish I were closer to my son - and I don't mean distance. I'm relieved whenever we are on a friendly basis.
15. I love people, and I really love my nieces and nephews, my students, my friends, the out of sorts clerk at Sam's Club, the inlaws of my inlaws, ..... have I told you lately that I love you??
16. I love it when someone asks me how I can be in such a good mood, or love even the unlovely, cause it gives me a chance to tell them about Jesus.
17. I am really a control freak, but sometimes I learn to hide it.....mostly not.
18. I love Jesus, and really wish I were a better disciple.
19. I love to travel - really love it. I want to go to Arkansas, China, Ghana again and again, South America, Italy, Alps, back to Alaska to fish a few more times, ....or wherever God gives me opportunity.
20. Too much of my self-worth is tied up in awards, contests (did I tell you I won a contest this week?), points, making money, etc, etc.
21. I get pretty depressed sometimes.
22. I don't expect people to love me back as much as I love them, but I do get my feelings hurt sometimes.
23. In spite of my huge "to do" pile, I can't wait to see Jesus.
24. I'm not nearly afraid enough of some things.
25. I'll be happy when Kaylene gets her dog - but happier when Abram has more siblings.
January 19, 2009 at 10:10 pm